Tonight's Poet Corner: Introspection
I think we're definitely in, "I'm not as introspective these days," territory, people.
Which is weird because for months, I was writing these long, self-pitying diatribes where my anxiety was cranked up to eleven. Now I'm just tired all the time. I'm like a battery that constantly needs recharging. I just need to push to the end.
I've been talking with people and mentors and doing my best to recalibrate my perspective of myself versus the world around me. For example, I need to remember that what some people think of me isn't actually me. People's opinions do not shape who I am or what I stand for. I also need to remember that making mistakes is part of the journey. Sure, it hurts to make these mistakes, and I wish I didn't, but it makes me no less of a good person. This needed to happen to help me improve, and it will help me tell better stories later on.
I think, again, we are living in a society now where we are not allowed to be flawed or mess up without extreme responses or repercussions. And I wish people could remember that everyone has to start from somewhere, and that no matter how much we evolve and develop and (hopefully) improve as people, there will still be setbacks. If you're willing to forgive yourself, why not forgive others?
On a different note, I also loved being able to catch up with a former boss of mine over dinner this week. Having an interaction with someone I deeply enjoyed working with and learning from was super refreshing, and it reminded me of how valuable of a teacher and individual I am. I also loved seeing how well she was doing and the awesomeness she was working on. That dinner, plus the positive feedback I've been hearing from students and staff, really helps refresh my memory at least a bit.
And that's what I'm working on. Now I need to sleep and prepare to watch a film about cat videos with my mom and my wife. Yes, you read that right - a film about cat videos.
This three-day weekend will be a lovely reprieve before the craziness of the last yearbook deadline arrives.
Have a great night and a great weekend, everyone.
Which is weird because for months, I was writing these long, self-pitying diatribes where my anxiety was cranked up to eleven. Now I'm just tired all the time. I'm like a battery that constantly needs recharging. I just need to push to the end.
I've been talking with people and mentors and doing my best to recalibrate my perspective of myself versus the world around me. For example, I need to remember that what some people think of me isn't actually me. People's opinions do not shape who I am or what I stand for. I also need to remember that making mistakes is part of the journey. Sure, it hurts to make these mistakes, and I wish I didn't, but it makes me no less of a good person. This needed to happen to help me improve, and it will help me tell better stories later on.
I think, again, we are living in a society now where we are not allowed to be flawed or mess up without extreme responses or repercussions. And I wish people could remember that everyone has to start from somewhere, and that no matter how much we evolve and develop and (hopefully) improve as people, there will still be setbacks. If you're willing to forgive yourself, why not forgive others?
On a different note, I also loved being able to catch up with a former boss of mine over dinner this week. Having an interaction with someone I deeply enjoyed working with and learning from was super refreshing, and it reminded me of how valuable of a teacher and individual I am. I also loved seeing how well she was doing and the awesomeness she was working on. That dinner, plus the positive feedback I've been hearing from students and staff, really helps refresh my memory at least a bit.
And that's what I'm working on. Now I need to sleep and prepare to watch a film about cat videos with my mom and my wife. Yes, you read that right - a film about cat videos.
This three-day weekend will be a lovely reprieve before the craziness of the last yearbook deadline arrives.
Have a great night and a great weekend, everyone.
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