Tonight's Poet Corner: Introspection
It's been one Hell of a week. I started my second summer class, fretted over my shortened hours, scowled at my very small paycheck, and overall was just generally anxious. This is sort of my life at this point. It's an endless roller coaster of happy times versus the heavy realization that my situation, at this point, is not ideal. Yes, obviously I am happy with my family, fiancée, and group of friends. That hasn't changed. But the other words beginning with f - my financial situation, my frenzied perspective on the world and its problems, my frequent bouts of anxiety - those are prevalent. And they especially flared up this week. I actually cried in my fiancée's arms when a class was dropped from my fall teaching credential schedule and I had to scramble to get another class so my grants would go through and I could, I don't know, actually afford going to school. The ups and downs do affect my writing in a lot of ways. I have noticed that when I am not feeling ...