My Cardboard Balcony

I Cannot Say by Belinda Roddie I cannot say a single goddamn word to rectify a sad situation, and while I get it, it still fucking hurts to see my loved ones all still suffering. My mediator brain is on the fritz as I navigate - gasp! - being silent rather than "teacher" or diplomatic (though geez, this is a teachable moment). How can I stitch my lips shut when I scream and cry as flashbacks rattle through my skull? After all, I can only burst the seams I've sewn until my wailing's a black hole, a gaping void, a self-inflicted curse - and most likely, I'm just making it worse.

And Still Waiting by Belinda Roddie Truth be told, seeing them happy now actually tasted bittersweet.

The Perfect Gift by Belinda Roddie Love, I bequeath thee a dagger of roses to stab your enemies with while still being so damn fancy and so damn elegant and so damn beautiful. Make your valkyrie mother proud.

Still Waiting by Belinda Roddie Apologizing doesn't show weakness. It shows strength. Just try it.

Chaotic by Belinda Roddie Somehow, when you say hello to me these days across the way, that sweet timbre I'm used to is out of rhythm, and my stomach burns like overheated coffee, and everything tastes so damn bitter.

No More Hurting People by Belinda Roddie And so, the mask was put on again, hiding the tears. 

Unfinished Song Lyrics by Belinda Roddie Don't tell me I left you when I wanted to stay and don't say that I walked out when you pushed me away Don't tell me I shut myself in when I opened every single door and don't you dare tell me I hurt you when you decided to let me go I gave you my heart, but you decided to box it kept turning its key when I tried to unlock it You were so damn convinced I'd do anything to stop it from beating for you